To be able to gain a fresh perspective on a situation, you have to remove yourself from the situation. life gets stale. you repeat the same routine each day. things get dull. you wonder where your fire went, your interests, your passion. you struggle to find reason and meaning in life.
then, you are whisked away from the humdrum routine. and when you’re dropped back home, you can see things clearly once again.
５日前 five days ago.
I showed up at my school to be on standby for a job I was originally rejected for. if someone didn’t show up to work, I got their place. I was about to leave when everyone was gathered outside in their teams, but I asked one person for help, and was placed on a custodial team. the job was 6 straight days of cleaning the dorms and on-campus apartments, 10 hour shifts every day.
１日前 one day ago.
the job sucked. I was not cleaning up to their standards in the beginning, and even when I got better, I was still too slow. so they let me go. it was definitely the hardest job I’ve ever had. I am sick now from all the dust and chemicals, but I made some money to put towards my trip, so whatever, I’m not too bothered. I did my best and kept going back even though I felt like quitting every day.
My friend gave me a ride that morning and I had been cut in the middle of the day, so I decided just to walk home. I was walking by these woods that I always admire when I’m flying past on my bike. since I was on foot this time, I decided to wander into the woods and just rest. my body and feet were sore, and I desperately needed some fresh air.
after my rest in the woods, I came across a field of daisies. they are so pretty! it was definitely a beautiful day to be fired.
I finally had the time to take care of household chores: cleaning the guinea pigs’ cage, dealing with laundry, enjoying the few strawberries my garden produced, and transplanting my edamame. I also decided to pull out my old polaroid camera after suffering some consumer envy for the instax mini cameras. then that night, I met up with my friends back home for dinner at our favorite restaurant. Life would be miserable without Mexican food.
in the past month I’ve had to leave my nanny job, find a summer job, and lose a summer job. so, what is my life about now? honestly, right now my life must be about earning money for my trip. in whatever ways I can, I need to work every single day to support my dream. really, “working hard for my dreams” should be my goal all the time. but… sometimes you lose perspective.